Funhouse

"This used to be a funhouse
But now it's full of evil clowns
It's time to start the countdown
I'm gonna burn it down, down, down
I'm gonna burn it down!"

How can I relate to this song?

The dormitory where I stay now is what used to be a funhouse but now it's full of evil clowns and how I wish to start the countdown to burn it down, down, down. Maybe even I'm done to burn it down, I would not even dare to touch its ashes. [I am so mean!] I love being mean all the time even if I never stops smiling.

So much so of that, this week I joined a contest in our school called "Jazz Chant" and we won second place. I'm so happy because I had so much fun with my teammates because every break we play Mafia or 369 and we really are happy with this game. Actually, we already perfected the game 369 and played starting from 300 up through 400. My group mates are Emerson, Arrenzo, Oxybubbles, Michelle, Jerjer, LJ, Marcus, Jem, Kuya Zyrex, Ate Elijah and Kuya Mafia. Why kuya mafia? It is because the real game only starts when he is out of the game. He's always the first man out of the game. Special thanks to Kuya Aaron because without him, we would not finish the choreography of our presentation.

CONGRATULATIONS TO THE WINNERS SPECIALLY BERTING!!!

Sober

"I'm safe up high, nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain inside, you're like perfection
How do I feel this good sober?"

I can't explain why I got addicted to this song. The first time I heard this, I already memorized the chorus then I searched the web and found more about its lyrics and I think I want to memorize it so then, I did and I really can relate to some of its parts but not all.

This week we had our Career Orientation and I learned a few of the ABC's in going to college but I really want to stay in high school like forever because I experienced a lot of things right here and some of them are cutting classes, sleeping in classes and dancing most of the time that I wasn't able to do in my elementary days. Until now, I'm not yet sure of what course I would be taking in the near future but I hope I would be choosing what God wants me to and what would really be helping me in the far future. The orientation was a bit boring and hot! Why hot? It is because we are sitting in the part of the gymnasium wherein the sun shines deadly.

Going back to the song, I got some information from Wikipedia about the song "Sober" written by Pink:

Pink wrote this song at a party hosted at her home, where everyone was drunk or drinking except for her, and she wanted them all to leave. She went to the beach and had a line in her head saying "How do I feel so good sober?". Eventually it had nothing to do with alcohol but with identities. "How do I feel so good with just me, without anyone to lean on?", Pink says in an interview. She also stated that the song was one of the darkest she wrote for the album. "Sober is a dark, kind of sad song. And it’s about the vices that we choose and I had this idea in my head, ‘Like how do I feel this good sober?...I don’t know it’s just a really, really personal beautiful song, one of my favorites…"

After reading this song meaning, i think I really can relate to this song because sometimes, I find myself happy alone and thinking of some dark sad songs and past events that sometimes makes me happy because I was able to surpass them.

THE FAME MONSTER

“Shakanangtuts.”

The week was flowing smoothly until I heard an announcement:
There would be three Saturdays that we are going to have make-up classes. $h@(*n#$&. I hate it. How about our practice for the upcoming Project Stars? It was also then that it was announce that we would be having practices on Sundays.

This fast events means that we would be having seven days attendance at school. No excuses. No escapes. No lies. No nothing. This week killed me. And right now while typing this blog, I am in a Computer Shop. My legs hurt. My feet hurt. My body hurts. Ugzzzhhh…

I hope I could recover for tomorrow. We have normal classes tomorrow.

Sacrifice. With this condition, I was not the only one who’s letting this event eat their rest day with our own family and our God. Every Saturdays and Sundays, I usually wake up at about 10:00 am to 12:00 pm. This morning, I woke up 5:30 am. My mother saw me awake and she knew it. She asked me “Me praktis ba kayo?” and I answered “May tama ka!”

There was a new album released and I like the brand of music in it for my brain is distorted towards music. I love music that is plainly extravagant! I hope someone would give me the album “The Fame Monster”.

PLANTS vs. ZOMBIES

NEW YEAR. After the deafening sounds stopped bombarding through my eardrums and the thick smoke outside disappeared, I was able to relax after jumping for a minute. I was hoping to get taller. I sat down, got my piece of cake and my fork on the dining table and continued watching television.

THE GAME. I got addicted to Plants vs. Zombies. I usually love action games but these one? The first time I saw this game. I really didn’t liked it because I thought it was boring but when I started it. I didn’t stopped until I finished it. And I got my Silver Trophy.

ONLY ONE

One day, Jesus met Satan. Satan challenged Jesus in a contest. The contest was a race to finish 10 reaction papers, 20 home reading reports, 15 movie reviews, 5 book reviews and 25 blog posts encoded in computer. After a long period of time, as Satan was to press “Ctrl + P”, the electricity went out. And when their computers reboot, all of Satan’s documents were deleted but Jesus started printing all of his works. Satan said that He is so unfair. How could it be that his files were deleted while His didn’t? It is because Jesus did something that Satan can’t:

He SAVES.

FRAGMENT (CONSIDER REVISING)

“Huli ka balbun!”

A statement I got addicted to. Last Sunday, I attended YCTP at Trece Martirez City and I liked Talk 2 for it is interesting. It was about the Spiritual Warfare and Zeus talked about it. I learned a lot of things in that meeting. I learned how to talk the talks. I learned how to be a facilitator. I learned how to be a camp servant. I learned a numerous of ideas and jokes in that meeting. Sadly, I wasn’t able to apply it in a camp yet for I haven’t been a servant in a camp.

MANIPULATOR OF OBJECT

Happiness. Ecstasy. Joy. Bliss. Elation. If this thing is a physical object, what would it look like?

For me, I think, that it is light that always strike in a big round mirror. Happiness is passed from one person onto another faster than a wink, comparable to light. But it strikes through a circular mirror and it would be seen by a lot of people in many angles, in many ways and it‘s up to them to interpret the source of happiness. And while his thinking of that, he is not aware that he is starting to smile, and then, he becomes blissful.

BAD ROMANCE

I know that fairy tales aren’t true but I do believe in happily-ever-after’s. I really thought years ago that living happily ever after being married is true. It finally came to a point that I realized it’s not going to happen for all.

It was when my father died that I stopped believing for a happily-ever-after for our family. I thought he would not leave. I thought that we would live happily ever after. I guess I was wrong but see I’m strong. It won’t take long for me to move on.

I think that our life is really archetypal. Starts up as happy, thinking about happily ever after and all the happiness that would happen but a twist happens that it ends up sadly, having a romance that ends up badly, a bad romance.

TEARS FROM AN ECSTATIC AND WHOLE HEART

This weekend, I joined a short camp that changed my life. I learned a lot of things about Jesus. I met a lot of new friends and a lot of changes in my life.

I stood! I stood for my only God, my savior and my klasmeyt, Jesus Christ. I stood to welcome Him and receive Him into my heart and give my life for Him. I stood because I love Him. I stood because I know that He’ll be forever in my life. I stood because I know He’ll see me through His righteousness. And then… we started singing. I heard voices around me and then all I can hear was the hands of everyone around me clashing through each other and then I closed my eyes. I saw the deep dark space and I saw his image. The events were so fast until I started singing and these water crystals formed on my eyes and they started to fall as tears. I clapped with the beat of the song but I can’t hear it. I was uttering words from my mouth and I still can’t hear it. That is when I really think I received God in my heart. Anything is possible. In a minute, you could be deaf but in a wink, you’re back to yourself.

WORRYING IS A SIN

Why worry?

Us people are not perfect and sometimes in things we do, fear stops us. We worry that maybe we do something wrong, or maybe we will lose something. We worry that maybe we will get hurt. But God promises to protect us with his awesome power and majesty.

These past days, an idea that I usually hear from my dorm mate sinks in my mind and stayed there. If I hear him tell me “Worrying is a sin,” I just ignore him but if you think deeper, you’ll understand the very important idea that is coming from this four-word sentence.

Why should one worry for something if he knows that He who made us would always protect us? If he trusts God, he should not worry because he knows that there is his God that would protect him; there is his God that loves and saves him; and that there is his God that would always be on his side and His will is the best for him.

REBOUND

In Basketball, rebound is what a player do to possess the ball or to pass the ball to a teammate after a player fails to goal.

In life, there is another rebound that I know. Rebound in love. I’m going to share an experience. When I was in elementary, I had this girlfriend that I think I loved so much. We lasted for about three years. We had a lot of things in common. Until, I went to school at Maragondon. Our relationship started to be cold, icy cold. We broke up when her family went to Dasmarinas to live there. I felt so sad. I had this friend of mine that I’ve got so close, too close. At that time, my heart was empty. My heart was like a ball that the first girl held so long and she tried to goal but she missed. And there was this other girl that jumped high, reached out and tried to catch it and goal it.

Rebound love ends like this always. There are rebound loves that happens until the person (ball) realizes that he really doesn’t love the rebounder for he just thought that he does just for the fact that he was broken-hearted and needed someone to accompany him.

ALONE

I’ve got a lot of friends and classmates. We do sing a lot together and we do not care if it would rain and yeah we sing in vain. We had sing “Alone” but I really can’t believe that in my life somewhere, somehow I would feel alone.

I hate being alone. That’s the most boring word I’ve heard. When I’m alone, I feel incomplete. I feel hated. I feel cold. I feel very numb.

Somehow, being alone helps me. I could do my projects, blogs and draw a lot of things and I can try stunts. Being alone gives me time to cure my brokenness. I know I’m not perfect that’s why when I’m alone; I find time to talk to Him. In the times like this, I explore every corners of my mind. Finding time alone with yourself would help you explore yourself

Being alone (now for me) doesn’t mean being left behind but being with yourself just for awhile.

NOW

I am the person that is (what they say) happy-go-lucky. I usually don’t think about tomorrow. I make decisions and rules as I go and live my life. All I care about is now. Now is all I’ve got. Now is all I think about. And I don’t care if there would be a tomorrow for me. I think that’s why I’ve got a lot of memories to treasure.

Every moment is important. But I’m the person who wastes each part of it. Wasting it by looking at the sky, looking at the ceiling, lagging and suddenly someone tells a joke, a corny joke, and all that is pops in my mind is the sentence that I never uttered, “SINAYANG MO ANG LIMANG SEGUNDO NG BUHAY KO SA PAGJOJOKE MO!” I can’t remember from whom did I hear this line but I really think that… wait a minute! Can I really think? Hahaha…

i gOt a fEeliN'

This week was the birthday of my old classmate and my best friend back in my elementary days. So I went to his house yesterday. He had a party and I think this song played more than ten times during the party but I like this song for it really suits what I feel right now:

I gotta feeling that tonight's gonna be a good night
That tonight's gonna be a good night
That tonight's gonna be a good, good night

A feeling that tonight's gonna be a good night
That tonight's gonna be a good night
That tonight's gonna be a good, good night

A feeling, woohoo, that tonight's gonna be a good night
That tonight's gonna be a good night
That tonight's gonna be a good, good night

A feeling, woohoo, that tonight's gonna be a good night
That tonight's gonna be a good night
That tonight's gonna be a good, good night

Tonight's the night, let's live it up
I got my money, let's spend it up
Go out and smash it like oh my God
Jump off that sofa, let's get, get off

I know that we'll have a ball
If we get down and go out and just lose it all
I feel stressed out, I wanna let it go
Let's go way out spaced out and losing all control

Fill up my cup, mozoltov
Look at her dancing, just take it off
Let's paint the town, we'll shut it down
Let's burn the roof, and then we'll do it again

Let's do it, let's do it, let's do it, let's do it
And do it and do it, let's live it up
And do it and do it and do it, do it, do it
Let's do it, let's do it, let's do it

'Cause I gotta feeling, woohoo, that tonight's gonna be a good night
That tonight's gonna be a good night
That tonight's gonna be a good, good night

A feeling, woohoo, that tonight's gonna be a good night
That tonight's gonna be a good night
That tonight's gonna be a good, good night

Tonight's the night
(Hey!)
Let's live it up
(Let's live it up)
I got my money
(My pay)
Let's spend it up
(Let's spend it up)

Go out and smash it
(Smash it)
Like oh my God
(Like oh my God)
Jump off that sofa
(Come on!)
Let's get, get off

Fill up my cup
(Drink)
Mozoltov
(Lahyme)
Look at her dancing
(Move it, move it)
Just take it off

Let's paint the town
(Paint the town)
We'll shut it down
(Let's shut it down)
Let's burn the roof
And then we'll do it again

Let's do it, let's do it, let's do it, let's do it
And do it and do it, let's live it up
And do it and do it and do it, do it, do it
Let's do it, let's do it, let's do it, do it, do it, do it

Here we come, here we go, we gotta rock
(Rock rock rock rock rock)
Easy come, easy go, now we on top
(Top top top top top)
Feel the shot, body rock, rock it, don't stop
(Stop stop stop stop stop)
Round and round, up and down, around the clock
(Rock rock rock rock rock)

Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday
(Do it!)
Friday, Saturday, Saturday to Sunday
(Do it!)
Get, get, get, get, get with us, you know what we say, say
Party every day, p-p-p-party every day

And I'm feelin', woohoo, that tonight's gonna be a good night
That tonight's gonna be a good night
That tonight's gonna be a good, good night

I gotta feeling, woohoo, that tonight's gonna be a good night
That tonight's gonna be a good night
That tonight's gonna be a good, good night
Woohoo

I think that I got a feeling that I can talk to the person I can't for that person is smiling to me now and I talked to her last Friday. I'm successful for I got a feeling!

sOng oF mY pResEnt liFe?!

I think this is the song of my present life. This song is sang by Matt Nathanson. I can't really define what's the meaning of this song but I right now I miss someone... Someone I'm so afraid to talk to right now. Even though we're too close to each other, it really seems that she's a galaxy away.

Come on, Get Higher

I miss the sound of your voice
And I miss the rush of your skin
And I miss the still of the silence
As you breathe out and I breathe in

If I could walk on water, If I could tell you what’s next
Make you believe, make you forget

So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire in the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love

So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire in the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love

I miss the sound of your voice
The loudest thing in my head
And I ache to remember
All the violent, sweet,
perfect words that you said

If I could walk on water, if i could tell you what’s next,
make you believe, make you forget

So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire in the swing of your hips
Just to pull me down hard
And drown me in love

So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire in the swing of your hips
Just to pull me down hard
And drown me in love

I miss the pull of your heart
I can taste the sparks on your tongue
I see angels and devils
And God
when you come on
Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on
Singin' shalala la
Singin' shalala la
ooo
ooo
ooo-ooo-ooo-ooo-ooo

Come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire in the swing of your hips
Just to pull me down hard
And drown me in love

So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire in the swing of your hips
Just to pull me down hard
And drown me, drown me in love

(come on get higher, loosen my lips)It's all wrong
(faith and desire at the swing of your hips)It's all wrong
(just to pull me down hard and drown me in love)It's all right

So, come on, get higher
Come on, get higher
'Cause everything works love
Everything works in your arms

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I love my life!

tHe tiMe hAs cOme!

Catastrophic! Shocks! I can't believe it! I survived! I told you, I WILL SURVIVE!

First, I was afraid; I was petrified. But then when the program started, all of the fear was erased. I never tought that I'll Survived in finishing this program being an emcee. Good thing that Ma'am Tolents, Ate Bless and Ate Zab supported me all the way! Thank you also Ma'am. While you're reading this, I hope that you're in good condition.

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PTC.

I was shocked that I got those high scores. I didn't made it in the Top Ten but still I thank God for I got high grades. I know that grades are just representations of what we did that grading and I'm happy that I got high grades that only means that I did great this grading.

I'm proud of myself. Ahaha...

Thanks Bro!

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I finally realized that I should give up looking for that word you know. That L-O-V-E word for I know it's going to come to me by itself. I stopped everything connected to Internet. I stopped YM-ing, Friendster-ing, Tagged-ing, Scamming and I didn't tried to use Facebook. My only connection to Internet now is this blog. I bought a SMART sim so that I won't have any text mates. I really do not know why but I think I have a psychological problem right now and it would take a long time for me to be cured.

x_x"

...tHe pAraBle of tHe cAlL cEntEr?!...

So this week I learned a story from my dorm mate, Kuya Genz (short for Genesis). Actually I just guessed the title of his story. I give this title for it:

"The Parable of the Call Center"

and it goes like this:

Once, there was a boy who died (though I do not know why). He went straight to heaven (maybe he was good that's why he went straight up there). After passing through a huge gate. He saw God. God said, "Halika, gusto mo i-tour kita dito sa langit?" And the boy quickly agreed. First, they saw a door. God opened it. The boy was shocked and thought, "Bakit kaya andaming angels dito?" Inside the room was a million of angels. They are all wearing a headset and busy using the computer. So the boy started asking, "Bro, bakit parang call center dito?" God answered, "Ahmmm. Ang totoo n'yan, ito ang receiving area namin. Dito namin tinatanggap ang lahat ng mga kahilingan, sama ng loob at wishes ng mga tao."After that, they transferred to another room and the boy was shocked to see an angel in headset and using the computer. The boy asked, "Bakit po mag-isa lang siya?" God quickly answered, "Kasi kaya na niya 'yung trabaho niya kahit mag-isa lang siya." The boy being curious what is the angel's job quickly asked, "Ano po bang trabaho niya?" God replied, "Siya 'yung nag-rereceive ng mga pasasalamat ng mga tao."

This is self-explanatory and if you can't get what the lesson is, better ask me.

dOrkY weEk

I don't know. Is it me or this week that was dorky?..

I think it was because that we just had our Periodic Test this week.(Take Note: deadly PT's.) I think I wasn't able to study a lot for I really loved sleeping and I was disturbed by a problem.

PROBLEM:

What would I use as an alternative name or pen name?

REPRESENTATION:

Let x be my alternative name or pen name.

EQUATIONS:

x = should be a famous person or a god

x = should be unique

x = should be one word

SOLUTION:

At first, I thought of the name Loki. Loki is a Norse god that was evil. He is the son of two giants and was the god of fire. He was a trickster and a shape-shifter. He was the father of Hel, the goddess of the underworld, also the problem with that is that there's a show in TV5 titled "Detective Sleuth Loki" so I think I'll cross out Loki in my list.

Then, I searched for the third gorgon.

She was Stheno or Stenno. I like the first one though. But she's a female and her name sounds like... a notebook.

Heimdall. It is pronounced as hey-dal. He is the god of vigilance in the Norse Mythology. He is the one that defeated Loki in Ragnarok. He can see up to thousand of miles in one glance; he can hear the grass growing and a sheep's wool sprout. I've made my mind. And it means that:

x = Heimdall.

So from now on my blog has a pair of brand new eyes and it is Heimdall's.

The Birth of a Mother

My mother at school is Ma'am Juliet. It's her birthday last Monday. I'm so happy for the celebration is BONGGACUOUS.

Then, the home works clogged my bag. Imagine having six home works per day. It killed me. I slept past 12:00 pm everyday.

This week I had so many "first time's". They're here:

First time to go home with Gale... Ayiiiiiiiii

First time to forget to update the blog...

First time to forget to play Grand Chase...

First time to be representing a club...

First time to be sleep at the lounge room of our dorm

First time to forget a home work and go back to the dorm at lunch to have P.S.

First times are my favorite for I'm having a lot of fun taking risks. This insolence offers no assurance but still do these things. I can't stop myself from taking risks for I'm a risk taker. this blog short [only!] though it means a lot for me[?].

Tнє мαякѕ σƒ вℓσσ∂

The marks of Zorro. Zorro may leave a "Z" mark... but...

The marks of Blood. Red ballpoint pens may leave a deadly grade or a surprisingly passing grade. And I'm too lucky to have some of those surprisingly passing grade but... most of my grade are F. *(-_-)* huhu

Do you know what we did this week? We checked, checked and checked. And guess what? We checked again. And I almost forgot to tell you that we checked also. :-))

PTs are so hard to check for after checking other's paper, you'll see the red mark that is encircled on the upper right part of the first page of your Periodic test and guess what [as usual] it's a failure. Failures that piled up in your bag that you'll let your parents to sign. Parents that will scold you for this even if you studied so hard. And this insolence placed me in the same ground wherein I am still happy for I will never give up. This alchemy of life that I'll be stucked in forever [though forever does not exist].

But why am I here, in this dimension, in this planet and in this time plane where I'm going to suffer those offensive words given to me, suffer these damn sermons from these old people who I can say are so dominating, and face the truth that slowly kills our momentum of living ecstaticly, the truth that all of us will die. And this death may be the greatest thing that can happen to all of us for we are just temporary things in this dimension, in this planet and in this time plane.

I hope a time fault would happen if I'm going to die so that I won't feel the pain and will not see the marks of my own blood on my t-shirt.

Speaking of blood marks on clothes, do you know what I discovered last Thursday? I have ments on the back of my polo. Damn!