TEARS FROM AN ECSTATIC AND WHOLE HEART

This weekend, I joined a short camp that changed my life. I learned a lot of things about Jesus. I met a lot of new friends and a lot of changes in my life.

I stood! I stood for my only God, my savior and my klasmeyt, Jesus Christ. I stood to welcome Him and receive Him into my heart and give my life for Him. I stood because I love Him. I stood because I know that He’ll be forever in my life. I stood because I know He’ll see me through His righteousness. And then… we started singing. I heard voices around me and then all I can hear was the hands of everyone around me clashing through each other and then I closed my eyes. I saw the deep dark space and I saw his image. The events were so fast until I started singing and these water crystals formed on my eyes and they started to fall as tears. I clapped with the beat of the song but I can’t hear it. I was uttering words from my mouth and I still can’t hear it. That is when I really think I received God in my heart. Anything is possible. In a minute, you could be deaf but in a wink, you’re back to yourself.

WORRYING IS A SIN

Why worry?

Us people are not perfect and sometimes in things we do, fear stops us. We worry that maybe we do something wrong, or maybe we will lose something. We worry that maybe we will get hurt. But God promises to protect us with his awesome power and majesty.

These past days, an idea that I usually hear from my dorm mate sinks in my mind and stayed there. If I hear him tell me “Worrying is a sin,” I just ignore him but if you think deeper, you’ll understand the very important idea that is coming from this four-word sentence.

Why should one worry for something if he knows that He who made us would always protect us? If he trusts God, he should not worry because he knows that there is his God that would protect him; there is his God that loves and saves him; and that there is his God that would always be on his side and His will is the best for him.

REBOUND

In Basketball, rebound is what a player do to possess the ball or to pass the ball to a teammate after a player fails to goal.

In life, there is another rebound that I know. Rebound in love. I’m going to share an experience. When I was in elementary, I had this girlfriend that I think I loved so much. We lasted for about three years. We had a lot of things in common. Until, I went to school at Maragondon. Our relationship started to be cold, icy cold. We broke up when her family went to Dasmarinas to live there. I felt so sad. I had this friend of mine that I’ve got so close, too close. At that time, my heart was empty. My heart was like a ball that the first girl held so long and she tried to goal but she missed. And there was this other girl that jumped high, reached out and tried to catch it and goal it.

Rebound love ends like this always. There are rebound loves that happens until the person (ball) realizes that he really doesn’t love the rebounder for he just thought that he does just for the fact that he was broken-hearted and needed someone to accompany him.

ALONE

I’ve got a lot of friends and classmates. We do sing a lot together and we do not care if it would rain and yeah we sing in vain. We had sing “Alone” but I really can’t believe that in my life somewhere, somehow I would feel alone.

I hate being alone. That’s the most boring word I’ve heard. When I’m alone, I feel incomplete. I feel hated. I feel cold. I feel very numb.

Somehow, being alone helps me. I could do my projects, blogs and draw a lot of things and I can try stunts. Being alone gives me time to cure my brokenness. I know I’m not perfect that’s why when I’m alone; I find time to talk to Him. In the times like this, I explore every corners of my mind. Finding time alone with yourself would help you explore yourself

Being alone (now for me) doesn’t mean being left behind but being with yourself just for awhile.